The Heat is On

Just some things that are really going to send me to crazy town.

The biggest and meanest of them all: THESIS. One year of my life dedicated to make the most beautiful ever research paper of all time. Of course that's the dream, and when you have Ms. Winnee - MS. WINNEE - telling you she expects never-before-seen grades from her thesis students this semester, my mind immediately switched to the procedure of changing supervisors. I quickly destroyed that dendrite carrying that signal and focused on the present. There's a reason I chose Ms. Winnee - I needed to buck up with my work, been always having okay, little better-than-average grades. Need a test that would really break or make me.  So challenge accepted. Together with the assignment rush, responsibilities at church and home, along with personal vendettas, I will slot thesis in there wherever possible.

So since we are on about University, let's move on to assignments! Yes, the bane of every university student. The endless nights, spend in front of the computer doing something ELSE instead of FACEBOOK and TWITTER.  I mean who would have known that computers had other uses right? So assignments are piling in and the lack of preparations are beginning to feel a little daunting. It seemed like they were not due until a long time more, but once you write everything down on a calendar, the pressure feels so much more real. I'm just thankful that I didn't attempt the 4 subject semester this time, and decided to take it one step slower.  And I'm also thankful for the fact that there are more presentations instead of written work, at least you can wing some of it.

So the biggest chunk of my life is taken by university-related things, very closely followed by the "church things".  Right now, it's CUG and the Worship Ministry that I'm in at the moment.  Being in charge of CUG has been rather eye-opening. You realize who are the true sporting people and who are the true reliable people. You see how one group carries on strong while another just loses their touch and falls apart after key members disappear. You start changing the list of people you would have jumped off a cliff for.  After all, all that was sought for was support, and they came from an unexpected group of people.  Throwing hints like this bluntly to see whether support changes. Subtle hints to see if people care. Being part of the worship ministry has forced me to hone my drumming skills and have helped me to be more confident, but sometimes I wonder if it has already served its purpose...

When I saw responsibilities at home I also include responsibilities at work, since it is a family business. So my grandmother recently had a fall and she came to live with us for a week to recover, and during the duration of her stay, we had to limit our travelling and eating places to accommodate, wasn't really irked about it, but sometimes I just wished that she had invested more in me to actually feel helping her is more than a chore.  When it comes to work, well, it is work la. I can't say I love it, but it does have its perks.

Now to the me time and personal projects. Well, I haven't been working on anything to date - brushing a few scripts and songs up here and there, researching about how to properly film things, searching lowyat forums for cheap equipment. I sometimes feel like I'm ready to start but I don't know how. I need help and a guide. Looking for excuses to use the camera has helped me to adapt a little, but I need more and I'm glad to have the opportunity to work on Easter though its a small part at least I get to observe.

Another personal project is to get the band more gigs, we've been stagnant since last year's big event, and we have only one exposure. Well, we have one on the 21st of December which so COINCIDENTALLY falls on the same day as the Sports Carnival Table Tennis Competition which I am captain of the Psychology team and also falls on the same day as THREE - not ONE - THREE major assignments. 21st is going to be a challenge :|

So everything is here. The heat is on...

'Til the day I need release again...