Where does taking it like a man give in to justified anger?

You know how it's the little things that make the day that much better?
Well, I'm beginning to realize that it is also the little things that can make the day suck, like really badly.

Take today for example.  It's enough that I'm having nonstop deadlines to live with, a Christmas play to help in, a recording to edit, a band to manage, and work to cope with, but it just so happens that this tipping point had to be tested even more today.  It just so happens that whenever I feel that I'm just past the point of throwing a break someone's your face, something just has to happen to make me clench my fist, and hold myself from swinging.

Thank you all you people who ruined a wonderful week.  My highlight of the week should have been yesterday night when I managed to catch up with a dear friend, but now it seems that my highlight is going to be all about angst and depressing stories.

I've been brought up to be inclusive. I've been brought up knowing that there are billions of people in the world and none of them are the same as me. I've been brought up knowing that out of the billions of people there will be plenty that just won't click properly - that I won't be able to get along with.  Well, I thought I'd test it.  I thought that it'll be easy to be inclusive.  Well thanks for breaking that little idealism I had.  People admire a critical mind - believe me, they do.  BUT people admire a critical mind who knows how to communicate EFFECTIVELY with people.  Instead of a Mr. Know-it-All, or a stubborn *insert appropriate synonym for beast of burden*.  Shooting people down, blaming for no reason and insulting people right to their face is NOT a way to survive in a social world.  Sometimes I feel like your mouth moves faster than your brain, and before you know it your stubborn side takes over and you go defensive even though you know you are wrong.  There's a reason why I didn't want to be in this situation - I predicted this stressful scenario long before it happened.

Now to another person.  Well, you see, I recall you said that you don't give a *insert vulgarity* about the club I started, and now you're demanding things from me? Sure, it was a reaction to another person's remark, but that doesn't justify the fact that you outright insulted what I've worked VERY hard to make.  If you went on an insulted the other person, it would have settled easily, but you had to insult the group instead of the individual. Now I'm probably wasting words on you.

I realized that I'm wasting words here. It probable won't reach the eyes of those who need to read it, but that's what you call a catharsis I guess.

I needed some release. Before I actually blow up.  I've never blown out of proportion before (Well, maybe once...) so I hope you don't be the reason why you change the mild-mannered me into a raging unstoppable beast.  Seriously, I don't want to be the angry person no matter how justified the rage can be.  I always try to picture myself as the carefree and friendly person, don't change that image that I've been working so hard to maintain.  Don't.  Just typing this, I can literally feel my blood boiling. I literally feel heat rising out of my skin.

you.have.been.warned.