Goodbye

September is the month of goodbyes...

Soon you're leaving and flying off to a new place.  You're gonna enjoy yourself and experience new things.  I know you're going to fit in; I know you're gonna be fine.  I know you're gonna have tons of guys run after you (no matter how much you disagree).

So have a great time there and enjoy yourself to the fullest, but please don't forget me :)

Overwhelmed

Right now, I feel really pressed and pressured and here I am writing a blog post.  Well, this post has a purpose. It's my online access to my priorities and responsibilities for the rest of the year.  So I shall list everything in order of deadlines and then priority.

23-09 - KLIA
24-09 - 202 ERB draft and assessment 1
24-09 - 221 Pamphlet topic submission
25-09 - 121 Topic submission
27-09 - Band practice
28-09 - KLIA
30-09 - Christmas Script
02-10 - 121 Group assignment due
04-10 - Band practice
07-10 - Main Sanc duty
08-10 - 221 Video topic submission
11-10 - Band practice
14-10 - KAIROs Charity dinner
25-10 - 221 Pamphlet due
28-10 - Main Sanc duty
02-11 - 222 Group Assignment
07-11 - 202 Lab Report
18-11 - Main Sanc duty
19-11 - 222 Individual Assignment
23-11 - 221 Video due
02-12 - Main Sanc duty
*Things without a clear deadline:
????? - 121 Individual assignment due
????? - Worship video tutorial
????? -  Table Tennis Club Activities

I'll be adding more to this list as it continues :X

Just a Hiccup in this Hiatus

Why have I stopped blogging? I don't know. I don't seem intrigued anymore.
Now if I'm struck with emotions I just turn them into lyrics or prose which can all be found at pioneerinspired.blgspot.com

But then again, sometimes words need to be said.

My personal life is a mess. I like to think of myself as a logical person and that I won't simply make decisions based on this illogical thing called: emotions.  But to admit the truth, I do get rather emotional about my decisions MOST of the time.  And making this decision to fall might be the best or worse impulsive decision I've ever made.

I pride myself at being logical and hold on to precedence.  I pride myself in the ability to be loyal and hold on to hope. I pride myself at being idealistic and hold on to truths. I pride myself at being steadfast and hold on to consistency.  But truth being, I struggle a lot. I struggle with many decisions I make. I struggle with everything.  This brain of mine doesn't seem to work like everyone else. One moment I say that I won't fall for you and the next thing I know, I can't stop thinking about you.  Scumbag brain doesn't like to listen to me.

Now here comes the hardest part. To pursue or to let go. My decision would have been clearly the first, but factors have come to interfere with that.

Now I'm in a deadlock. Some part of me says to still give it a try, but then another part of me says that you deserve better.

Hopefully, absence will make the heart grow fonder :)