"An idea is like a virus, resilient, highly contagious. The smallest seed of an idea can grow. It can grow to define or destroy you."So now I'm in a jam. Not because of something I'm avoiding, but because of something I'm entertaining. A thought, even the most unrealistic thought can grow like wildfire and the longer I wait, the harder it becomes to douse it.
Life is complicated. I've come to terms with it a long time ago. But how life affects me is defined by how I choose to react to situations. This was what I thought, but the older I become the more I realize that one is never in complete control of their being. Thanks to the component of feelings one can never truly be objective. One can never say that words will never hurt him.
And the funny thing is that sharing doesn't seem to be working. There are people who say that you should share your problems with people you trust and problems will start to disappear, but the more I share the more it seems that I'm letting my feelings do the talking. Which this is against my ideal "logical" self.
I'm confused. Between my head and my heart there is a discrepancy.
My consciousness is scrambled. With all the things that is happening right about now in my life, this wasn't the thing I was depending on to happen. Then I guess, it was just the right time for it to occur. Because life is a
Need an outlet, but the semester just started getting heavier.
Planning already to take a weekend away to set my mind right.
There's no space (and time) for over-thinking and doubts. No space right now to second-guess myself. Decisions have to be precised and with conviction. Closed doors need to remain closed doors and I need to get a grip of reality. I cannot let little things (those little things that spark emotions) to take over my thought processes.
I need to get a hold of myself.
